My Heart Was Pure.

So much to write, but i don't wanna write it all. Sorry.
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But, for now, I'll fill ya in on a few things.
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IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY YESTERDAY! Ha, i turned 14. I'm older, haha. I like it :)

Um, since i was turning 14 i figure i could eat whatever on Mon. and Tues. and so practice yesterday= super bloated tummy that stuck out like a sore thumb. Yeah, i talk older now too. Haha, just kidding.

I'm not sure about what I'm at now...under 500 I'm sure tho. I'm just goona have a salad and maybe a jello, I'll stay under 100 tho, because i have a MEET TOMORROW! Man, I'm excited. DS is goona be there, so I'm probably goona try to impress him and mess up. Oh well, I'm still super excited.

My goal tomorrow is to bring like 5 jellos..and i few other things...but everything has to be super low cal, because i eat alot at track meets. I don't understand that tho. You'd think I'd barely eat, but i eat EVERYTHING i bring. Remind me to only bring like 100 cal of food, haha.

I'll probably post again tonight, just cause i haven't in a couple days. Sorry about that. Haha, i honestly didn't have time. I never really do, anymore.

BBIINNGGEE.

Ha. I just laughed. Yes, the title is correct.

After that last post like 15 min ago, I binged.

I'm so stupid, that I'm smart. I went for the healthy/ish foods.

2 string cheeses.
1 serving tuna.
1 granola bar with peanut butter.
1 hard boiled egg.

Pathedic i ate so much. Funny it won't kill me. Ha.

All In.

I think i drank like 7 of the 16.9 fl of water, not my goal, but kind of close.

Worked out 400 cal, again not goal.

Ate...alot. No meals tho, just tons of cookies...all day.

Conquered myself tho. I mean, I wanted to binge, thinking about the day, but i didn't. I didn't allow to eat cereal (my worst binge food) so i AM proud of that.

Thank you so much Thin Is Everything. You're last comment, about wanting to cry about hearing about what my mom said, made me think of things differently. You're right. I guess i always thought that i needed to be mad to do good, but i don't. I just need to do it. I don't know. Thanks tho.

Water.

I'm goona drink 10x16.9 fl of it.

Last post got deleted. UGH, it was LONG.

Goal: burn 500 cal. no food but the three cookies I've already had. Mushrooms if desperate. Cake at like 9 for uncles b-day.

Gain 2 pounds. Hoping to make a slight loss. Come monday, i'll have 300 cal. a day. Cause i need it. Badly.

Hands On Me.

Mom was rubbing my back. Made one to many back fat jokes. Tomorrow will be a good day, i'll make it one.

I'm A Creep.

Fishsticks and Tatertots. Why oh why were you served at lunch? Ok, i could i have lived with eating a ton of you, whatever. Stupid delicious smores pie thing. Why did we get to eat you? Ugh. I don't know what my intake was. Like i said, a ton of fishsticks and tatertots. I ate some because i figured i rarely eat the meal (always meat) and so i should eat some. It was yummy, but way to much. Then, afterwards another class gave us this absolutely amazing smore thing that just blew my mind. I have a gigantic sweet tooth, and these were just fantatic. Honestly top 5 things every eaten, and i've eaten alot of food.

I'm sure I gained, so I'll have 5x16.9 fl of water before bed, and i just drank a diet coke. I hope I don't gain more than a few ounces. I'll check before I shower later and then tell ya. It's usually atleast a pound down from that.

And I decided against ABC diet. I feel like i can just set my own goals? Thank you to everyone, and yes, there were like 5 or 6 people who continue to comment. You make my day :)

Yes!

Weight: 130.4 [-1.8]

Yes! :) 500 for today tho, my tummy feels messed up?